Wednesday, January 20, 2016

100% LOST

Every single day, I wake up and I have no idea why. Not in a sad or depressed way, I wake up and I see no purpose. There are some things that I think about on a daily basis, like for example that my life is so freaking short and I waste it on useless things, or that my problems that seem so big and important, in reality, are so meaningless and small.

I started to realize that after I came back from Russia. I started to understand that my life is exclusively mine and that I can do whatever I want to. That I can achieve anything I want and that I have to take every opportunity that comes across. Of course, I will have challenges and difficulties on my path to success or to my goal, but I will get there sooner or later if I really want to. I have to work hard to get what I want, I know that and I am ready to do so, but there is another problem in the way. 

Knowing that I can achieve everything in life made it even more difficult for me, that seems so silly, but I never thought about life in that way. I lived my life day by day not thinking about the future, my wishes, and dreams and just waiting for something to happen and I was relying on fate to do it's thing and bring me where I wanted to be. But now I realized that if I will continue to live like that, nothing will happen, nothing interesting. I have to take risks, opportunities and work hard. 

But now comes the real question: What do I really want? What do I want to do in life? I have no idea. I don't know what to strive for or what to work for or just simply what to do. For me, the future is so scary and I live in constant fear that if I make the wrong decision I will regret it forever. For example, what should I study? I am afraid that I will pick the wrong path and regret it later, regret that I lost time, change my mind or in the worst case be freakin' unhappy in my future job.

These things scare me the most, all I want is to be happy. 

A few days ago I saw a video on youtube, about a girl who moved to an island in Thailand, I think, and she is having the best time of her life. She married and has a child. She understood that life as it is supposed to be, as we know it is not for her. Here I am, so inspired by her story thinking the exact same thing as she did when she lived by our standards. 

Maybe her path is not the right path for me, but maybe my path is also different that the path of most people? Who knows? And how should I find out? 

I guess only time and my heart will tell.

xx, Lisa

Monday, January 11, 2016

Russia in Picture

After telling you a little about my unforgettable trip, I decided to actually show you what I saw and what I did. I hope that my iPhone-photography skills are somewhat acceptable. Enjoy!



xx Lisa.


Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Home is where the heart is

As the title already reveals, the trip to Russia was a success. We are back in Luxembourg and back to reality.

I am not going to talk about every single experience we had, because let's be real, that's a lot. We've been away for 2 weeks and we had a lot of good and also bad moments. However, in the end, it does not matter. What matters is that we had a great time and an unforgettable adventure. This is also what I am going to talk about today.

You are probably asking yourself, what was so special about that trip? Well, first of all, I got to know myself. Yeah, that does sound stupid, but I am serious. This was the first trip in my life, where I realized who I was and what I wanted. I don't even know how to explain it to you, but I had the feeling that saw myself from the side, from another perspective. I met a new me. Not only that but I understood that the things that I was worried about or the things that didn't let me sleep at night had no importance. Every single worry I had been so damn stupid and that I don't have to cry over things that do not actually matter.

I also got to know Nicole a lot better, our friendship grew stronger and we became even closer. I never thought that we are going to be as close as we are, and I am so happy about it. I am grateful to have such an amazing friend, who will always be there.

I learned that you should take risks and meet new people. Yes, it is dangerous and you never know what happens. You could die or end up hurt, but you'll never know if you won't try because it might be an unforgettable experience like it was for us. We met such great people, that we will never forget. We celebrated New Year's Eve with complete strangers, who we knew for 2 hours, but it ended up being the most awesome experience ever. A story I will tell to my children.

All in all, this trip to Russia grew to my heart and I am proud to call this place my home.

I could write so much more because the trip to Russia is full of stories, but I'm going to keep that one to myself. If you want to hear more about the trip, then I'll post the link of the podcast I recorded with Nicole on her radio show. It will be up on Friday, so stay tuned!


To wrap it up, I want to thank my angel, Nicole, for this amazing experience, I will never forget. Thank you so much, I love you with all my heart.

Also, here are some songs we could not stop listening and singing

xx Lisa